12+4...

one questioned asked at the start of each new year

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12 cards drawn

with the intention of adding 1 more

 13

representing this year that has come to be

the most fascinating thing

at the start of each new year

i face all the cards back to the same position

a newness kind of feel...per say

my first two cards drawn

were reversed as reversed could lay

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when reaching for the 13th card 

4 came stumbling out

i truly believe there is no willing the cards you draw

its plain and simple

they.will.have.their.own.way

Karl Von Clausewitz once said:

"If the mind is to emerge unscathed from the relentless struggle with the unforeseen, two qualities are indispensable: first, an intellect that, even in the darkest hour, retains some glimmerings of the inner light which leads to the truth; and second, the courage to follow this light wherever it may lead."

13...

there is no snow surrounding us...just a chill that lingers

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cool crisp clean...a winters morn...dusty white...sparkling as dawn turns her hands to day

13

darkness...yet knowing light will come

warmth from a fire still faintly burning

the smell of coffee

the taste of licorice root tea

warm cozy maryjanes

the feel of wool wrapped around my fingers

wooden needles clicking

slowness sinking in

words from old friends near and far

spirits lifted 

comfort in the unknown

solace 

solitude slipping slowly away

William Powell once said:

"Cultivate solitude and quiet and a few sincere friends, rather than a mob merriment, noise and thousands of nodding acquaintances."

forgiveness...fault...freedom...

over and over these words have came forth in my mind.

as 2013 has come to be

forgiveness

fault

freedom

three little words i wish to help guide me gracefully through this new year.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

for·give·ness

  /fərˈgivnis/

 

Noun

The action or process of forgiving or being forgiven.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

fault  

/fôlt/

 

Noun

An unattractive or unsatisfactory feature,

esp. in a piece of work or in a person's character.

Verb

Criticize for inadequacy or mistakes.

 

Synonyms

noun

 

defect - flaw - mistake - error - shortcoming - failing

verb 

criticize

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

free·dom

  /ˈfrēdəm/

 

Noun

The power or right to act, speak,

or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i am at

 

fault 

for not always releasing the negative...keeping it tucked deeply within...releasing it in moments of anger...healthy for any relationship...i think NOT.

these past 360 days 

 

forgiveness

is a word i have shared a multitude of times not only with myself but for many who surround me.

 it has become crystal clear that until we fully grasp

forgiveness

in our heart and in our mind we can not forget the past mistakes or moments that lay festering...life is in and with each moment...it comes...it goes...and i am now giving myself the

freedom

to unchain myself from feeling at

fault

for the actions and choices of others...i am giving myself a chance to attain

forgiveness

each and every day that i wake...i am allowing myself the

freedom

to not feel as if i was the cause or blame for the

faults

of others...the

freedom

to walk away from the negativity...there is no one or nothing in this world that can bring true happiness within... it comes from our own core...tis something we are all at 

fault

 for...trying ever so hard to find things that create happiness...we have choices that flourish with each tick of the clock and i will walk through the days of 2013 with

forgiveness...fault...freedom

felt deep down and no one can take away such. 

 

 

 

Ivern Ball once said:

Most of us can forgive and forget; we just don't want the other person to forget that we forgave