our seemingly endless summers days

came quickly to a close

please pardon the lengthiness of such

13...THIRTY~TWO

preparing

bracing ourselves for what was coming

hearing the news

a dr. coming through

mistakes

missing the known

enduring on everyones behalf

change

accommodating

pain

sorrow

believing in the final

hoping for a cure

Gilda Radner Once Said:

"Some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."

warmth from the summers sun

brought forth a sense of autumn

13...THIRTY~THREE

remembering our littles

giving

taking time

togetherness

a moment of space

a family as is

playfulness

escaping our minds

warmth within the day

surrounded by picnics

rustling

stirring

yet settled

Plato Once Said:

"Life must be lived as play."

the wait is over

13...THIRTY~FOUR

the time is now

a start

a beginning

anxiety flourishing

curiosity at ease

a first step for one father

his path unknown

strength from within

grasping onto what has been told

gripping faith

holding hope

believing the storm will pass

rising above fear itself

Someone Once Said:

"The scariest moment is always before you start."

september rolls in

the wheel begins to take its turn

13...THIRTY~FIVE

slowly sinking into a routine

everything we thought

no longer is

continually chaos

accepting

lack their of not even knowing

or attempting to understand

remembering there is a far greater plan

clutching the minutes

exhaustion setting in

rain is falling

clouds roll way

a new path unfolds

Buddha Once Said:

"No one can saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path."

the days are passing by with such a blurriness

yet a dragging slowness

we all feel the pull

13...THIRTY~SIX

pondering the thought of needing to be cloned

possibility of six more of me

one for a wife

one for a mother

one for a teacher

two for care giving

one for a daughter

one for a friend

arms feel as if they are being pulled a hundred different direction

seeking and searching

stumbling upon an old wooden fence

space granted to breath

bestowing a sense of peace

Sir Thomas Browne Once Said:

"We carry with us the wonders we seek without us."

trying times have begun

in our lives

13...THIRTY~SEVEN

unfortunate events

cancers treatments kicking in

one father struggling with strength

longing for it to all be done

knowing when to walk away

leaving yet standing for one minute more

pondering the final hours of the day

the dance of living

we are all learning

the balancing act

or caring for all

and remembering me

myself along the way

Joseph Smith Once Said:

"If you live up to your privileges, the angels can not be restrained from being your associates."

hitting the half way mark

hoping with everything in me

the rest is a down hill walk

13...THIRTY~EIGHT

stumbling upon an old dear friend

an extra hand presented without even knowing i needed such

pondering the mysteries and magic of life

one sisters cancer treatment completed

a scan presented

fingers and toes crossed

that her journey comes to a close

one father hits a half way mark

his health rose once more

the wheel has turned

storms came way

rains broke through

wisdom keeps dripping in

Someone Once Said:

"Believe you can and your halfway there."

sorry for the novel above

but for me

i feel complete once more