to fall or stumble upon
it will never become more
each minute and moment is in your hands
to do with it what you want
no one controls it
no one takes it away
we have a choice to live each day
to flourish
or to remain where we are
time will never stand still
Benjamin Franklin once said:
nothing more
nothing less
sometimes it all lies in the wait
rays of light
veil our home
refreshing i say
to see life lit up
i will say it a thousand times over in my day
i adore each season as it comes
an awakening
a shift
rebirth
the brink of mornings
nights lingering
a feeling of time lasting
energizing
eggs of paper
eggs of silk
seed sowing
garden plotting
lots of planning
spring lovin
C. S. Lewis once said:
pale buds forming
reminds me
leaves me yearning
for what will be
saturated luscious blooms
yet equivalently soft
enticing ones senses with their fragrance wafting
reminiscent of old rose blooms
a Chinese Proverb:
the wheel takes another turn
life
awakens
from the long winters still
the equinox presents itself
in a thunderous roar
winds ripping
rains raging
yet admist the commotion of weather
it is happening
just as it should
life blinks
an opening
a closing
spring unfolds
adorning the trees with delicate buds and birds
painting the scene with merriment once more
tis a
new...fresh...beginning
to emerge from the old
and begin again
just as nature
though our roots will never change
our growth always can
last week i came home to purple tulips waiting
kindness from my sister
a small gesture
that made all the difference
a certain type of love that was needed
purple waits
rethinking the thoughts of fresh cut flowers
spring sprouting
soiled fingers
bits and pieces
fragments
scattered
cloudiness
longer than long stretch
horrendous battle with migraines
old books
windows open
calming of storms
Indira Gandhi once said:
making & sending
was such a sweet treat
heart tag sent forth from Susan
heart tag sent forth from Katja
heart tag sent forth from Bambi
Thank you so for the creatively beautiful tags you each made
and
a glimpse of what i sent forth
this was a two fold surprise
sometimes i think i think to much
i am filled with many thoughts these past few days
watching people in life and their struggles at hand
wanting to help
but...knowing they are the only ones that can help themselves
believing...it is their path
reminding myself...you can only enable for so long
boundries
choices
change
ignorance
lightness and dark
wild new moon energy flailing about
emotions waxing and waning
wondering...if i stand in my own sunlight
have a day that fills your spirit with utter sorrow
all the while being stirred with gaeity
deeply saddened from hearing about the loss of two
yet the reuniting with ones from long ago
has brought forth a sense of solace
Paulo Coelho once said:
when you are looking for clarity
yet you don't know where to begin
when you are seeking and searching for what you feel you need
yet you can not find the answers
it is in without trying
that somehow it comes to you
finds its way
and makes all the sense
it is in realizing the answer is no longer what you need
when
without knowing
subtlety
quince buds emerge
abiding
while still wrapped within a season of cold
Sidonie Gabrielle Colette once said:
march 1
could it really be
the days of winter
slowly coming to a close
stranger than strange moments arising
wishing my fingers could move a bit quicker
crocheting away
wabi sabi words and thoughts
collectively gathering
the joy in giving
excitement in the air
despite the rain falling
hopes of a forecasted 60 degrees
this morning will be one trip to the airport
welcoming home a grandpa so dear
worries settling
our minds at ease
when luna blooms
so ripe and full
she draws me out
whispering softly in the blackness of night
to come and stand under her light
renewing my spirit and easing my mind
though it only lasts for a few passing moments
those moments are enough for me
Henry David Thoreau once said:
that you could age so quickly
my wee littlest put me at
seems i went warp speed through 306 years
really though
number five seemed to be hiding
so they improvised as best as they could
one
with
and
made one birthday mama
there will never be another year like so
it was
an
so many "first" time things came to be
THERE WAS
snowboarding moments
see here...it had been 16 years since i stepped on a board
due to my first time going down the mountain at the ripe age of 18...no one told me how to stop...they yelled up at me just fall back...so fall back i did...and ended up with a trip to the doc...end result...one cracked tailbone
our oldest said one day as i was ending 33
"why mama...why don't you try again"
so try i did
and i do have to say
a gift from my love and littles
with him saying
six girls {so we thought} came home
to add to our mix
here LIBRA just a mere 3 days old
it only took a few short weeks to discover that "she" was really a "he"
LIBRA now 10 months old
our bedroom went under construction
i helped my love and littles {and learned how to} build a bigger closet in our room and white wash our floors
with the presence of
{it was a first for many of them coming out to washington}
and per our fathers request
his ever loving 70th birthday wish
our father, my sisters, brother, nephew and i
my love and i
our oldest little {who is not so little anymore} turned 13
in my first belly dancing recitals
i
a very sweet couple
my love and i
while
my sister showed us
we spent many of our summer days picking away
and
took her on her
for a family trip
{it had been over 15 years since we all went up as a family and was also a first for many}
{thank you to two very dear people who made it possible}
and
to visit her campus and i was blessed to be able to show my support
an
with loved ones
and as a family we witnessed
here's to the gift of life
i launched my website
my dream was
if i sold just one of my prints
well many made my dreams come true these past few months
there were so many wonderful life moments that came to be
my hope for
the days of
tomorrow is
that
i
there are just some things in life
that are destined to happen
a link that reminds me we are bound together
the moment i think i am in the clear
freed from such
it presents its self once more
{see i live this nasty life tied together with my love and his ball point pens...14 some years and i can not tell you how many times i have had this happen...as if one time was not enough...oh no...the moment i think ah, its fine...is the moment it all begins...once more i decided i did not need to check his last pair of work pants as they were heading into the washing machine...and yes...this is where i went wrong...taking a chance...from the wash to the dryer...and from the dryer to oh no...not again...one lingering blue ball point pen was carefully residing in the last of his pants...another ink explosion at hand}
to add to that one of my slippers sneakily snuck in...goodbye to two creamy speckled white slippers hello to one dingy blue
accepting the reality of what really is
realizing some connections are stronger than you may think
leaving the door open for someone else to clean
allowing myself to let go of control
watching two littles find a common ground
admiring their chosen type of play
soaking up a moment of not having to parent
being the one to admit fault
forgiveness asked
forgiveness received
feeling the stir of spring
experiencing still the bite of winter
indulging in salted caramels to wind down my day
J. Johnson once said:
one day i might just remember those words
gathered carefully
lined by the right
and
stitched together tight
from nothing of sorts
with scraps that lay
a wee little book came forth
Someone once said:
because
she was ready to fly
the destination
was not what mattered
the spreading of wings
the freedom
at hand
the choice to choose
to know she could
not for much reason
or journey planned
to fly
because she knew
if she didn't
she never would
Richard Bach once said:
there are moments that leave you without words
